Missing Him

[thalassatx.livejournal.com]

Title: Missing Him
Rating: PG-13
Notes: I hope this doesn’t offend anyone too much. I don’t know any of the people in this ficlet, and I have no idea what they love or hate or do in their private lives. Archive at will, and feedback is always always appreciated!
Author: Thalassatx




God, how he hates this part. When they get silly and start waving pictures around like trophies, all coy and flirty and, Christ, girly. That’s when he wants to run away again, find his way back to his lover’s arms and hide against a strong chest, listening to the steady drum of a heart bigger than his own.

It’s not so bad. He likes women. He likes their curves and their sweetly scented skin. He likes soft lips and skin that doesn’t make his own prickle. If they just wouldn’t lose their bloody minds once in awhile, he could even marry one. But it doesn’t happen. No, at some point, sooner or later, they start making those eyes at him, the ones that say they own you, and that’s when he starts glancing at the scenery around him.

This one did it quickly. Just a few months and now she’s talking to the press, loud in her near-silence. She’s all winks and pouts and everyone thinks she’s adorable, but to him, it’s a noose around his neck, or maybe it’s his balls, and he wants OUT.

He wants the quiet hush of a green forest, with the calls of birds and the gurgling of small streams. He wants the whir of a cast fishing line, and the mad laughter of his artist. He craves the sound of a breeze in curtains, casting sun and shadow alternately against his skin. The sound a razor makes in the morning, a splash of water in the sink and the smell of a cheap shaving foam because anything more expensive is just a waste of money, Orlando, they all do the same thing.

He smiles, thinking of it. Simple things. Soap and that shampoo with the name… Suave, he thinks, something like that. TV dinners, when it wasn’t fresh fish or something exotically Argentinian. Music that didn’t soothe as much as it irritated and books lying about with torn paper as bookmarks.

He puts down the article and sighs. This is his life. Expensive leather belts and worn just-so jeans and hair products in Japan. Visits to children in countries where they’ve never heard of Pirates and he’s just the nice white man come to see them and maybe they’ll get better dinner for a few days. And of course, the girlfriend on the cover of magazines bragging by not saying she’s seeing him.

God, how he hates this part.

Comments

[galor5.livejournal.com]

The longing has to be so hard for him. :O(

He needs to be with his artist, his lover, his man.

[thalassatx.livejournal.com]

Thank you, for ALL your comments!!

[tati.livejournal.com]

loved all the little bits you posted today, but this one especially. such raw emotions, and yet not enough strength of will. sad :(

[thalassatx.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[tularia.livejournal.com]

I love the honesty of this. The gut-wrenching emotion makes you want to snuggle him up safely away from everything.

[thalassatx.livejournal.com]

It's a bit raw, but thank you.

[bluedahlia.livejournal.com]

A condensed appraisal of a complex unsatisfied life.

Deeply sad :o(

But beautifully written ... thank you so much for sharing ♥

[thalassatx.livejournal.com]

Thank you for reading :)

[oceansecrets2.livejournal.com]

the smell of a cheap shaving foam because anything more expensive is just a waste of money, Orlando, they all do the same thing.

So wonderful, I could just hear that conversation while the two of them are sharing a mirror one morning.

[thalassatx.livejournal.com]

I can imagine a little roll of the eyes at some Fiber Neo :)

[oceansecrets2.livejournal.com]

Though Orlando probably gets that for free :-)

[simply-rubbish.livejournal.com]

Ouch. I feel bad for him, but at the same time it's his choice and a stupid one at that. Who in their right mind would give up Viggo and everything meaningful that comes with him for such shallow crap? Makes you want to smack some sense into him. :-p

Perfectly written and poignant. Fantastic. It'd be interesting to know how Viggo sees it. I've a feeling he doesn't look upon it too nicely either. You have me intrigued with so little words! :-p

[thalassatx.livejournal.com]

Thank you thank you!

[mistry89.livejournal.com]

A reminder of how young he was when they met, and how sometimes one can mistake an event for an Important Event (well, that was always my on my mind when I saw the docos).
Leaves a melancholy taste.
Thank you (what a busy day you've had!).

[thalassatx.livejournal.com]

And vice versa... sometimes important events are the smallest things.

Thank you!

[sarkka]

WHAT WHHAT WHAT ??? How did I miss this or didn't you post it in your own journal ?

Very good and made me nod in front of the screen =)

[sarkka]

And corrected I stand LOL ! I didn't see it yesterday, I went to bed little after 22.00 for once :P

[thalassatx.livejournal.com]

No, this one was new!!

Thank you!

[thalassatx.livejournal.com]

Thank you!!

[itstonedme.livejournal.com]

Thank you for this. Such a nice antidote to the non-stop ridiculous RL slamming he's been taking in the press lately.

[thalassatx.livejournal.com]

Thank you!!

[littlegreenleaf.livejournal.com]

This was just beautiful in its sadness. You really get the feel of what he's yearning for here. Very good work!

[thalassatx.livejournal.com]

Thank you so very much!

[vatulele.livejournal.com]

Oh this is so heartbreakingly beautiful.

[thalassatx.livejournal.com]

Thankyou!