FIC: It Has to Be

[ranmaru.livejournal.com]

So, last night I get a call from my boyfriend's very cool aunt who is 70. She asks me what "yaoi" is (um...gay porn for the most part) and then the conversation turned to fanfiction and stuff she'd seen online (she's a Final Fantasy fan) and then I told her... "I've been posting some of my stories lately. It's Viggo Mortensen and Orlando Bloom." She goes, "Together?" "Yes." She was quiet for a moment then says, "Yeah, I can see that." If I hadn't loved her before, I certainly do now! Ha ha! See, even 70 year old women can understand the hotness of VigOrli!  Now, as for the story...I don't really like it, which is why it's the last of my old fics (finished) to be posted. Bear with me. Friday's fic will be better!

Title:  It Has to Be
Author: Ranmaru
Rating: PG
Summary:  What's really for the best?
Disclaimer: Don't know, don't own, just playing.
Beta'd by lenalovewho is lovely and fabulous and posts pics of OB that are so utterly droolworthy. ^_^

Orlando’s eyes glazed over as he stared at Viggo and the older man quickly crossed the room. “Don’t, please, don’t do this,” Viggo whispered hoarsely as he tried to take the Brit into his arms but Orli backed away.

 

“No…” Orli’s voice broke and he sucked in a shuddery breath.

 

Viggo let his arms drop to his sides. The dark emptiness in his chest was spreading, leaving the Dane weak and helpless. He couldn’t stop this, it had to be done but Jesus Christ it hurt.

 

“Why?” Orli’s voice was stronger but for the barest quiver.

 

“I know you don’t understand now-“

 

“You’re fucking right I don’t understand. What was all that bullshit about after the shoot, finding a place near you in the States? What the fuck was that?” Orli almost took a step forward, Viggo could see the violence in every clean line of the younger man’s body. The artist would have welcomed an angry shove, even a punch but Orli stayed still, that damned agonized look in his shining brown eyes.

 

“It wasn’t bullshit. It…” Viggi rubbed the back of his neck, feeling the tense muscles. “I wanted it. It wasn’t a lie.”

 

“But you don’t want it anymore.”

 

He couldn’t look at Orlando when he said, “I can’t want it.”

 

“That doesn’t make any sense.”

 

“It doesn’t matter.”

 

“The hell it doesn’t matter! You’re doing this for my own good, right?” Orli laughed bitterly. “That’s rich. You should have thought of my own good a year ago!”

 

Viggo walked over to the wall of pictures he and Orli had accumulated over the course of the movie shoot and focused on Ian McKellen and the knight’s rakish wink. “I was only thinking of myself a year ago. Now…”

 

“Now I’m in love with you and if you end this I’ll never forgive you.”

 

Hands against the wall, Viggo leaned his forehead against the cool glass of a picture frame. “I don’t want that.”

 

“I’ll learn to hate you Viggo.”

 

His chest felt so tight, his throat burned. “Stop,” Viggo whispered raggedly.

 

Warm, familiar, strong arms slid around him as Orlando pressed his trembling body against Viggo. The soft bristles of his shaved head pricked the Dane in the neck. “You stop. Stop being such an idiot. Whatever is scaring you, we can deal with it.”

 

“Things will change when we leave New Zealand. You know that.” God, was that croaking voice his?

 

Orli nodded against his back. Soft lips caressed the sensitive skin just above the collar of his shirt. “I know. You think I’m some stupid kid? I’ve been on my own for a while. I know how to take care of myself.”

 

“Your career-“

 

“Is going to be fine, and even if the world finds out about us, and I suddenly find myself pigeon-holed in one gay role after another then so be it. Or…we could live in Europe where no one gives a shit.”

 

Viggo felt his lips twitch. “You won’t listen to me about this, will you?”

 

“I wouldn’t listen to anyone when they said I’d never be a famous actor either and look at me now.”

 

“Don’t let me fuck this up, Orlando.”

 

“I won’t. It’s going to be okay.”

 

Viggo turned and buried his face in Orli’s neck, holding the Brit so tight he knew Orli couldn’t possibly breathe but there wasn’t a murmur of complaint from the man in his arms, his own hold on Viggo tightening just as much.

 

 

 

END

Comments

[eenoogje.livejournal.com]

I am not sure why you don't like this one because it's beautiful. Viggo's fear and the way Orlando reacts to it are so real, it's almost like being there!

And your aunt is amazing!!!
Glad we are not the only persons that think they fit very well together!

[ranmaru.livejournal.com]

You think so? Well, maybe I should reconsider my opinion...

[galor5.livejournal.com]

This was really good! I could feel the emotions coming off of both of them. Viggo trying to be strong and do what's right and Orlando not letting Viggo give up on them. Excellent!

That's awesome about your Aunt.. I mean really if people just stopped to think about it they'd see it too! :0)

[ranmaru.livejournal.com]

It's a little different than the original story...maybe the changes made it better? Glad you liked it!

[sitaray.livejournal.com]

wow...that was so emotionally deep. I don't understand why you don't like it. I think it's so realistic that they would both act that way if all we believe is true did happen :)

And your boyfriend's Aunt is amazing!!! The only person that really know's about my Vig/Orli obsession is my sister-in-law and my husband, though my husband thinks I'm crazy! It's just that they both fit together, like puzzle pieces, and I would love to wake up one morning and find out that it is true!

[ranmaru.livejournal.com]

The BF thinks I'm crazy too. His son, who lives with us, doesn't know what to think, though he's just started calling it "The Gay." Are you writing the gay? Watching the gay? Reading the gay? And when I say yes, he just laughs and shakes his head. My friends just chalk it up to my rather odd personality. ^_^

[nverland]

Made me tear up, but that's not a bad thing. I really liked it. I can see Viggo trying to protect Orlando that way. (so glad he didn't listen)

[ranmaru.livejournal.com]

Really? I mean, not that I want to make people cry, but...um...yeah, I sort of do... ^_^

[nverland]

I'm one of those terribly mushy, very sentimental Vig/Orli shippers. So I love a good teary one that turns out well

[ranmaru.livejournal.com]

Hm...next week...angst train might be a-rollin' in...

[ireth06.livejournal.com]

This wasn't a bad story, I loved it a lot! The emotions, the tension, it was all very real. Viggo's fear and Orlando's determination, making it all alright!

How can anyone not love your bf's aunt! She's adorable! Give her a kiss from me!

Thanks for sharing, again, LOVEZZZZZ!!!

[ranmaru.livejournal.com]

Isn't she the best?! And thanks!

[ranmaru.livejournal.com]

I'm so glad people have liked this since it hasn't been a favorite of mine...

[littlegreenleaf.livejournal.com]

You have no idea how much I look forward to your fics...it's unhealthy, I think! But seriously, they're like a life preserver to me...this one was just wonderful, btw, just like every single one of them! *hugs*

[ranmaru.livejournal.com]

Happy feedback is definitely a life preserver today, so I'm glad we could help each other! *hugs back*

[obvmluver.livejournal.com]

I really don't understand you here. You say you don't really like this? WTF??? This is just the right amount of angst I need to feed my hunger every day. I hope you'll be lightening my days forever.

Thanks for this and for all the already sent ones and for all those you still plan on sending...

*shuts up as she realizes she lost her mind... blushes gracefully*

[ranmaru.livejournal.com]

Well, the angst will return next week... And now I'm wondering that if I don't like this one (or didn't...you guys have made me re-think my opinion) than the ones I do like must be just fabulous! *snickers* Everyone has seriously made my crappy day so much better. When I read the "WTF???" I just started laughing. Thank you!!!! *snuggles*

[tularia.livejournal.com]

You don't like this one? Why not????
It's pure guttural angst! AND I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!

[ranmaru.livejournal.com]

I think I'm holding it over from when it was first written. I changed a lot because I wasn't satisfied with it then...guess it turned out alright. Thanks!

[feenie.livejournal.com]

The angst!! The angst!! I loved it;it definitely does seem like a conversation they could have had (or might ;) ).

[ranmaru.livejournal.com]

Think so? Thanks!!

[laura-iskra.livejournal.com]

but but but.. it's beautiful! why don't you like it?

[ranmaru.livejournal.com]

I don't know. Guess it improved from its original version.