Don't Let Go (6/8)
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vigorliTitle: Don't Let Go
Author: me,![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
invisible_dream
Pairing: V/O
Rating: NC17
Summary: how it all began...
Beta: the fabulouswillowwing *loves*
Disclaimer: not true; all fake; i'm a perv
A/N: thanks to this anime porn i watched for the idea; some of you might recognize it
With a heavy sigh, I lifted my hand and buzzed Orlando's apartment. I couldn't believe this was actually happening.
"Hello?" Fuck, just hearing his voice was enough to send me over the edge.
"It's me," was all I could manage.
"Viggo!" He sure sounded excited.
I heard the door buzz open and slowly made my way inside and up the stairs to his apartment. Why the hell was I doing this? The smarter half of me was screaming for me to just go home and sleep it all off. But when did I ever listen to that part of me?
He must have been waiting for me. As soon as I reached his door, it flew open and I was met with an armful of a very bouncy Orlando. Of course, I hugged him back, clinging just a bit tighter than usual. If this was going to be my last moment with him, I wanted the hug to count. However, I couldn't bring myself to look him in the eyes.
"I didn't expect to see you today!" he exclaimed, pulling me inside. "Did you walk all the way here? Are you mad? It's supposed to storm. You could've gotten sick! Or even worse!"
"Orlando, Orlando...just...sit down for a minute, please," I stated, still not able to meet his gaze.
"Okay. Is everything all right? Did you finish the new painting?" he asked as he plopped down onto his couch.
"Yeah...it's done." Definitely not the happiest thing I've painted...
"That's great! I can't wait to see it!" he exclaimed. "W-what's wrong? You look...upset."
I sighed and paced back and forth a bit, trying to find the right words to ask what I didn't really want to know the answer to. Perhaps Sean was wrong. He’s been known to be wrong hundreds of times. But there was something in the back of my mind that kept nagging me. Some part of me really believed what Sean had said...a really big part.
"I'm just going to be blunt because I have no idea how to do this." I took a deep breath and finally looked at him. "I'm not sure I can see you anymore."
I saw him swallow. "What do you mean? Why?"
"I can't be with you, knowing that I'm just another conquest. Another notch in your bedpost."
Do you know that cliché moment in movies where there's a giant clap of thunder when someone receives bad news, or when he makes the biggest mistake in the world? I could almost hear it.
"You'll sleep with anyone who wants it," I shot.
The look on Orlando's face was a mixture of shock, pain, and...almost guilt, but his silence told me all that I needed to know.
"See you around, Orlando," I growled, turning to leave.
"Viggo...wait a minute. That's not how it...I never wanted to..."
"Stop!" I spun around, facing him with a death glare. "I know you, Orlando. I know all about your cavalier sex life. You use men to get what you want out of them, and then leave them. Just like that!" I was furious - beyond furious - furious at him for using me this way - furious at myself for believing that someone like him could actually be interested in me.
"Please, Viggo...let me...let me...I can explain. I should have done it a while ago, but please!"
"Don't bother!" With that, I practically ran out of his flat, slamming the door behind me. I needed to be alone. There was nothing he could say that would make this whole mess better.
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remember you wanted the next part to be posted!!!
*runs and hides*
Author: me,
invisible_dreamPairing: V/O
Rating: NC17
Summary: how it all began...
Beta: the fabulous
willowwing *loves*Disclaimer: not true; all fake; i'm a perv
A/N: thanks to this anime porn i watched for the idea; some of you might recognize it
With a heavy sigh, I lifted my hand and buzzed Orlando's apartment. I couldn't believe this was actually happening.
"Hello?" Fuck, just hearing his voice was enough to send me over the edge.
"It's me," was all I could manage.
"Viggo!" He sure sounded excited.
I heard the door buzz open and slowly made my way inside and up the stairs to his apartment. Why the hell was I doing this? The smarter half of me was screaming for me to just go home and sleep it all off. But when did I ever listen to that part of me?
He must have been waiting for me. As soon as I reached his door, it flew open and I was met with an armful of a very bouncy Orlando. Of course, I hugged him back, clinging just a bit tighter than usual. If this was going to be my last moment with him, I wanted the hug to count. However, I couldn't bring myself to look him in the eyes.
"I didn't expect to see you today!" he exclaimed, pulling me inside. "Did you walk all the way here? Are you mad? It's supposed to storm. You could've gotten sick! Or even worse!"
"Orlando, Orlando...just...sit down for a minute, please," I stated, still not able to meet his gaze.
"Okay. Is everything all right? Did you finish the new painting?" he asked as he plopped down onto his couch.
"Yeah...it's done." Definitely not the happiest thing I've painted...
"That's great! I can't wait to see it!" he exclaimed. "W-what's wrong? You look...upset."
I sighed and paced back and forth a bit, trying to find the right words to ask what I didn't really want to know the answer to. Perhaps Sean was wrong. He’s been known to be wrong hundreds of times. But there was something in the back of my mind that kept nagging me. Some part of me really believed what Sean had said...a really big part.
"I'm just going to be blunt because I have no idea how to do this." I took a deep breath and finally looked at him. "I'm not sure I can see you anymore."
I saw him swallow. "What do you mean? Why?"
"I can't be with you, knowing that I'm just another conquest. Another notch in your bedpost."
Do you know that cliché moment in movies where there's a giant clap of thunder when someone receives bad news, or when he makes the biggest mistake in the world? I could almost hear it.
"You'll sleep with anyone who wants it," I shot.
The look on Orlando's face was a mixture of shock, pain, and...almost guilt, but his silence told me all that I needed to know.
"See you around, Orlando," I growled, turning to leave.
"Viggo...wait a minute. That's not how it...I never wanted to..."
"Stop!" I spun around, facing him with a death glare. "I know you, Orlando. I know all about your cavalier sex life. You use men to get what you want out of them, and then leave them. Just like that!" I was furious - beyond furious - furious at him for using me this way - furious at myself for believing that someone like him could actually be interested in me.
"Please, Viggo...let me...let me...I can explain. I should have done it a while ago, but please!"
"Don't bother!" With that, I practically ran out of his flat, slamming the door behind me. I needed to be alone. There was nothing he could say that would make this whole mess better.
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remember you wanted the next part to be posted!!!
*runs and hides*
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Date: 2006-08-20 01:16 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-08-20 03:31 am (UTC)*pets sean* poor guy, getting yelled at for looking out for his friend.
viggo's just in a mess of confusion