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Darkness of the mind series part 10: Answers

By: Naurel Greenleaf

Rating: NC-17

Summary: Orli is betrayed by a friend and his life is changed for ever. Will Viggo be able to help bring him back from the brink of self-destruction?

Paring: Orli/Viggo

Warnings: SLASH RAPE!! Loads of violence in the people. This fic is RPS! In no way is this fiction based on truth! It is made up ..un real.. did NOT happen!

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Disclaimer: I do not own the charters nor the people who portray them ~only if I did own Orlando Bloom and Viggo Mortensen or even Legolas and Aragorn… ~ They belong respectively to themselves and J.R.R. Tolkien. The story line however is my own.

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Answers

Orlando jumped to his feet and started toward them. “What happened?”

“It’s alright,” Sean said calmly. “We just had to,” he paused, “release some frustrations and work some things out.”

Orli’s eyes got wide, “this is how you work things out?”

Viggo couldn’t help but laugh as he realized, “not with anyone but Sean, with us this just seems like it’s what works.” He knew Sean agreed when he heard a rumbled laugh. Taking Orli’s hand, “we need to talk Orlando, now.”

He sighed and walked back to the bed, pulling his hand free from Viggo’s. He’d been expecting this but he still wasn’t ready for it. He knew they were going to ask him to leave. Sitting cross-legged on the bed he nodded, “lets talk.”

Both men joined him, one sitting on either side facing him. Sean was the first to speak. “Orli I didn’t mean what you thought I did down there. I would never do anything to hurt you and nothing in this world could be farther from the truth then for you to think I don’t want you here. I know I made a right ass of myself but please believe me when I say that I love you and will always, always be here for you. I guess I’m just going through some issues of my own and I don’t know how to deal with them either so I just snapped. I’m sorry, please tell my I haven’t fucked up our friendship,” tears brimming in his eyes.

Orli launched into Sean’s arms and hugged him so tight he thought he was going to break him. “You didn’t fuck up anything Sean! I didn’t think about anyone but myself and I was expecting you to take care of me.”

“But I want to Orli, we both do,” he interrupted. “You are the least selfish person I know besides the filthy ranger over here,” he teased. His smile faded as he ran his hand through Orli’s soft hair, “please let me do this. Please let us take care of you,” softly.

Orli shook his head yes as he cried against Sean’s shoulder drinking in all the love he was offered. When the tears stopped he sat back on the bed and turned his head to Viggo. “Viggo I,”

“Wait,” he held up his hand. “I need to say something and if you interrupt me I’ll never get it out so let me finish ok?” Orli nodded and listened. Viggo stood and paced as he talked. “I love you Orli, I do. I know I have told you that but I don’t think you believe me. I…I thought that you and Sean had something going and that’s why I have been pushing myself away from you. I know I don’t deserve you and if you are happy I don’t want to get in the way of that.” Turing back to face him, “I know you blame me for the rape, hell I blame myself.”

“Stop it!” Orli yelled frightening them both. Tears fell from his eyes, “I know this wasn’t your fault Viggo. I know that because I know it was mine!”

“What?” came a dual shout from both shocked men. “Why in the hell would you think that?” Viggo croaked.

“Because I wanted to be with a man, with you,” he said softly, head lowered. “I wanted you and that made me gay and that made what they did to me my fault.”

Viggo sat on the bed with a strangled sob, feeling guilty because it did have something to do with him. Sean on the other hand was angry at this line of thinking and grabbed Orli’s chin, roughly whipping his head toward him. Teeth gritted he asked, “Why in the bloody hell would you think that?”

“It’s what my mum told me,” he said trembling, tears running down his face and Sean’s hand. Both men looked at him slack-jawed as he continued. “The first night I came here and you had me call her. She knew about the rape and I couldn’t face her questions so I tried to change the subject. I told her how the two of you were taking care of me. She was happy to change the subject and asked if I was dating anyone. I told her that I had loved someone before but I was sure they wouldn’t love me after,” he shuddered. “We talked for a while about it and she asked who this person was. When I told her she, she started cursing and yelling. She told me I deserved what I got for being gay. That I was bending over for everyone and someone finally took me up on it,” he broke down in tears.

Viggo scooped him up into his arms and held him as close as he could. Sean stood and paced like a caged animal. “That is the most ignorant fucking thing I’ve have ever heard! What the fuck is wrong with people? First it’s Viggo thinking it’s his fault then it’s your own Mum telling you it’s your fault. You know who’s fucking fault it is Orlando?” Sean growled. “It’s dickhead Dan’s! Not yours, not Viggo’s, not mine, not the Queen’s, not the fucking aliens on Mars but DAN’S!” He saw the looks on both their faces as he approached. He leaned down as close as he could with out making contact with either of them. “You love each other. I keep telling you that and you keep saying it to yourselves but until you both believe it, well, then if it doesn’t happen you know who to blame!” With that he stormed out the door and out of the house intending to teach someone a lesson about something tonight.

Viggo and Orli looked at each other for a long time before the older man laughed. “I guess we have officially been told off by a very angry son-of-a-steward.”

Orli laughed too then sat back on the bed and wiped his eyes. “I’ve never cried so much in my life.”

Viggo reached over and wiped a tear from his cheek. “I thought I had lost you when you were pushing me away. Why didn’t you tell one of us what your mum said?”

“I was afraid she was right, that maybe I asked for it and didn’t realize it.”

“Orlando, I don’t care if you were humping their legs you could not have done anything to ask for the treatment you received. Nothing!”

He looked up into the gray blue eyes and saw only truth in their depths. “Thank you Viggo; that means so much to me that you believe that.”

“I do.” He smiled and leaned in closer placing the most tender kiss he could on soft pink lips. “I also know that I love you and want you more then anything in this world. I want you to know that when ever you feel comfortable, feel like you’re ready to make love I’ll be waiting for you.” He kissed him again with more power this time and to his surprise he felt trembling lips return the kiss.

He couldn’t believe what he was hearing! Viggo still wanted him even after he’d been so badly used. The thought of Viggo taking him, of loving him made his heart pound. He laced his fingers around Viggo’s neck and pulled him down to the bed so that the older man was on top of him. “Please, please make love to me?”

Viggo stopped breathing when he heard those six words whispered to him. He was going to show Orlando how it felt to be loved. He would make this a night he would never forget.