fic: Supposed To Be (V/O, adult)

[stormatdusk.livejournal.com]

title: Supposed To Be
by: stormatdusk
pairing: viggo/orlando
warnings: angst, no happy ending
words: 308
disclaimer: this is only fiction; it's not true and i don't know these people at all.
a/n: written to the pictures below the cut, for mistry89, who regularly brightens my day.






This was supposed to be about vengeance.

About how he left you. That he left you. And about making him very, very sorry for it.

Who knows better than you how visual he is, how his soul is fed so well through his eyes? He'd spend hours with his camera on you, trying to capture your spirit in a split second of light and shadow. He loves - - loved - - to pour over the pictures, lay them out on the bed with your naked body, drink them in, drink you in. Make love to you right there amidst the ink and paper declarations of his devotion.

Now you know: devotion had its limits. After too much (time apart), too many (other priorities), too hard (to be your secret), it was, finally, for him, too late.

So you're here, in front of the camera. Half naked. Hair wild, like he loved. Smoking something he could've rolled himself. You discussed it with the photographer: you want these pictures to be something different. Sensual. No, more than that. Overtly sexual.

Something to make him regret it.

Yeah, here you are. Trying to tune out the people milling about touching up your hair, adjusting the lighting. Act the part. Focus on the fantasy, the thrill of riding a beautiful lover, of wanting someone so much, of being wanted so much. Think of how it'll kill him, once he sees these. And not in private, no; he'll see them splashed across the pages just like everyone else will. He's not special anymore.

Instead, with every click of the shutter you feel the ghost of his hands on your body. You hear the murmur of his passion, smell the scent of his skin. All you can taste is ache, and regret, and emptiness.

This is not how this was supposed to be.



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Comments

[laura-iskra.livejournal.com]

ouch, it hurts!

well done!

[sitaray.livejournal.com]

Poor Orli...how depressing!

[mithriel.livejournal.com]

oh no......it cut through my heart...
and yes, it brought me back to the depressing beginning of last year, something did happened to him that we will never know.

[estels-artemis.livejournal.com]

Heartbreaking!!!

[samtyr.livejournal.com]

Wow! This rocks! (It's very sad and heartbreaking too.) Thank you so much for sharing it.

[kinseymill.livejournal.com]

Awesome angsty piece. Loved it!! :)

[illiadri.livejournal.com]

Oh have mercy on my poor heart. Now. See. I of course enjoy the one on the left immensely because, well, erm, nekid chest. But the one on the right has always been more intriguing somehow. Viewed in conjunction with your fic there definitely could be an element of 'What are you looking at, old man? See what you had?'.

These photos amazed me at the time for precisely the reasons you cover in this piece. We had never seen him anywhere near this... messy. But a lover would have. A lover would have and if that lover loved his camera in turn... *shivers half-happily* Thought provoking. I like thought provoking :)

[stormatdusk.livejournal.com]

thank you. :)

[stormatdusk.livejournal.com]

yeah, the pictures seemed to call up a depressing bunny. :)

[stormatdusk.livejournal.com]

thanks for reading. you icon is really lovely.

[stormatdusk.livejournal.com]

yeah, good thing it's only fiction. ;)

[stormatdusk.livejournal.com]

yes! they were so different than anything he'd done before, and they just floored me. still finding them inspirational, too. ;)

[stormatdusk.livejournal.com]

thanks so much, so nice of you. :)

[stormatdusk.livejournal.com]

soemtimes a little angst hits the spot, yeah? :)

[your-own-path.livejournal.com]

Ummmmm *shivers* but in good way.

These photos really do beg for a fic just like this. Now I want Orlando to do a movie with this look and really shock everyone out of their opinion of him.

Loved this! Mwah!

[stormatdusk.livejournal.com]

wouldn't that be something! :) thank you for reading.