Running on Faith - Chapter 15

[miwido.livejournal.com]

Okay - it's giving me hell trying to post this on Mirrormere.  I can see that there are hits on the chapter and you are probably screaming when there is nothing there!  Decided to come over here and see if I can get the thing loaded.  Things have been pretty bad.  Started injection therapy for my multiple sclerosis.  Dad had 2 minor heart attacks and required a quadruple bypass.  Basically moved into my parents home and that is where I have been.  My mother couldn't take care of him by herself.  I know some of you have given up on me, but I am back and will get this finished.  Thanks for your patience and hope you enjoy.

Orlando and Viggo didn't speak much on the way home the next day. Gary had shown up at the hospital earlier in the morning, bringing Orlando his Jeep.  Viggo had been released later in the afternoon, and now they were on the way to his house.

Viggo watched the scenery go by, his thoughts filled with questions as to where they went from here. He only hoped that Orlando meant what he said last night, but Viggo was scared that Orlando would rethink his decision now that he had calmed down and knew Viggo was okay. He was pulled from his thoughts as they pulled into his driveway, and Viggo was surprised when Orlando killed the engine and climbed out of the Jeep. They made their way inside, both of them nervous and not sure how to approach each other.

Viggo went to take a quick shower, hoping that Orlando would still be there when he finished.  He moved just as quickly as he could, not wanting to give Orlando too much time alone. 

As Viggo walked into the kitchen, he stopped in his tracks. Orlando was moving around the kitchen, heating up something for them to eat. Viggo’s stomach rumbled at the smell of food; he hadn’t realized how late it had gotten.  Orlando looked completely at ease and comfortable, and for a brief moment Viggo felt a warmth wash over him. This was how it was supposed to be. 

No, that's not right… This is the way it was going to be again. 

He walked up behind Orlando and slipped his arms around his waist, hugging him tenderly. Viggo couldn't help but notice that Orlando tensed ever so slightly at his first touch. After pressing a kiss to the stubbly side of Orlando’s head, Viggo reluctantly let go and moved to the side, helping him finish getting everything prepared. After serving themselves, they moved to the den, where they sat on the couch and ate in silence, neither of them knowing where to begin.  They had a lot of ground to cover, so many things to talk about, and many tears to share.

After finishing their meal, Viggo finally found the courage to turn to Orlando. "I'm so glad that you're here; I've missed you so much." He reached and cupped Orlando's face in his hand letting his thumb stroke over his cheekbone. "I know we have a lot to talk about but I hope that you'll stay here tonight with me."

Orlando couldn’t speak and just nodded his head.  Viggo stood up from the couch and reached out with his hand, patiently waiting for Orlando to take it.  When he did, Viggo slowly led him down the hall to the bedroom.  

Viggo was unsure what to do.  He usually slept in the nude, but he knew that wouldn’t be welcome tonight.  He stripped down to his boxers, watching out of the corner of his eye as Orlando did the same.  Viggo stretched out on the bed and held up the covers until Orlando slid in beside him.  Viggo pulled him close, guiding his head down to rest on his chest as he slid his arms around his body, gently rubbing them up and down his back until Orlando relaxed.  Finally they both drifted to sleep and stayed in each other’s arms all night.  

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When Viggo woke the next morning, he was spooned behind Orlando with his arms wrapped around his waist, their fingers intertwined.  Viggo had a raging hard-on and he bit back a moan as he realized it was nestled between Orlando’s cheeks.  He wanted Orlando so badly; it had been so long and Viggo had missed him so much.  He started nuzzling Orlando’s neck, placing soft kisses along his hairline.  Without thinking, he began to slowly rock his hips, sliding his hard length along Orlando’s cleft.  He couldn’t hold back the soft moan this time and slowed his movements as he felt Orlando starting to wake.  

When Orlando opened his eyes, he thought he had been dreaming.  He could feel the kisses along his neck and the subtle rocking of Viggo’s hips and realized that he was actually experiencing these things.  He wanted this so badly, but he knew he couldn’t.  Not now, anyway.  Orlando laid there for a few more moments before slowing starting to move away and get out of the bed.

Viggo tightened his arms around his waist.  “Don’t go.  Please stay Lan.  God, I want you so much.”

Orlando started to pull away again and Viggo tightened his grip, trying to keep him in his arms.  Orlando felt trapped and his pulse immediately began to speed up.  He jerked away from Viggo almost violently.  “Stop it.  Let me go!”

Viggo immediately loosened his grip. "Orlando, wait. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to push you."

Orlando sat up on the side of the bed but he didn't make a move to leave. "We can’t just pickup where we left off. I won't jump back into bed with you. I can't. This is gonna take a lot of time and if you aren't going to take this at my pace, then maybe we shouldn't even start."

Viggo moved around so that he was sitting next to Orlando on the bed. "I'm sorry Lan.  I'll give you what time you need and it doesn't matter how long it takes, because I’d wait for you until the end of time."

They sat quietly for a few moments.  Orlando closed his eyes and took a deep breath, trying to get his emotions under control.  “I’m seeing someone who can help me.”

Viggo was glad he was sitting or else he would have hit the floor as soon as he heard the words.  His stomach felt like it was full of lead.  Viggo should have known that Orlando was seeing someone; he found warmth and comfort in someone else’s arms when Viggo turned his back on him.  His head dropped forward and he stared at the floor, his voice barely above a whisper.  “I understand.  I’m glad you had someone to go to when you needed it.  I always wondered if there was anything going on with you and Gary.  I hope you are happy with him.”

Viggo slowly raised his head to glance over at the man next to him.  Orlando has his arms crossed and a look of bewilderment on his face.  “Gary?  You think that Gary and I?”  His voice trailed off and he chuckled.  “No you daft prick.  A therapist.  That’s who I am seeing.  Gary and I are just good friends.”  

Viggo let out a deep breath, relief washing over him.  “So what you are saying is that you and I?”  He left the rest of the sentence hanging, not sure if he should voice what he desperately wanted.  

Orlando shrugged his shoulders.  “I don’t know Vig, but I want to try.”

Viggo smiled as he slipped his arm around Orlando and leaned in to press a kiss to his temple. They had a long way to go and many obstacles to overcome, but deep in his heart he knew they would make it.

TBC

Comments

[lireeli.livejournal.com]

Hello,
You don't know me, but I've found your story on Mirrormere and loved it right there. I love the way you manage to make us feel powerfully the pain and aches and hopes from your characters. So vivid.
I'm happy you'll finish this story. It deserves to be finished.
I'm sorry your life is tough right now and I send you all my wishes and vows for a joyful and healthy future.
Take care of you.

[miwido.livejournal.com]

Thanks for all of your kind words! Things are getting better and hopefully my life can slow down just a bit. I know how frustrating it can be when you are really in to a story, only to find that it's not completed and never will be. I don't think there are going to be many more chapters in this one, but we'll see. Glad you are enjoying it and thanks for your comments.

[teleferique.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the update, I've enjoyed this story a lot and am glad you were able to get back to it.

[woowoochow.livejournal.com]

enjoying your story,cant wait for more.